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A palm tree… nothing but a palm tree but enough to remind me of a smile. I feel life, I see joy in the wind, I smell fresh, I enjoy beauty again… a few thousand miles away from what seems to make up a home but just enough to realize once again that I’m lost.

As I have no choice but to blend in with everything that’s around me I stop fighting it and just let go. After a short period of no ideas I fully disconnect… It slowly becomes to feel truly like a home… But it has no walls!! and I’m lying down on sand and it feels better than any mattress I tried… I turn my head to the right and follow my fingers as they slowly dance in the sand much as playing in a beautiful girl’s hair only this one has seen, heard, smelled and felt more than all of our species will ever do. I turn excited to my left to follow my other hand but I am being stopped by the beautiful image in front of me and weird enough is not a plasma screen but a blue infinite filled with stars. I close my eyes and I turn it off… I’ll only open them to see a smile this time… that’s what I thought!! Said and done… I close them again and think of opening them only to see an angel… I do it again and again and amazingly I know exactly where to turn my head so the stars shape whatever I want to see… and then it hits me… I have full control over it and nothing is resisting. Of course not! I am part of it as much as it is part of me. I am finally home.

Now give it a rest and come out and share it!  As I turn off the image I tell myself that the next time I open my eyes I want to see her smiling next to me. My palms instantly sweat of emotion and impatience to share being free with her…  I complete my head movement towards my left hand where I wanted to find her… lightning strikes me… it rains for a full day after…  I have to get out now!! 

I leave it all there and keep smiling… it could have been but it was not… I am here, you are there… No questions asked…

Maybe next time.

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Is just a story with no words, ,no characters, no subject … is a plain story about watching… watching someone of course, watching an angel do what angels do.
I feel like i can’t get enough of anything. Am I that greedy? I guess the answer is yes. Is there something wrong with it? Hmmm if there is I’ll take full responsibility for it. Can i help it? I don’t think so… Can you, can she,…can anyone?
Time flies and i love letting it get by me just like that.
A smile… a big one that’s all i asked for tonight. Did i get it? I got much more than that… who should I thank for this?
I don’t know!? I’ll just thank you for existing and being there.

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I am about to wake up. I am starting to have feelings… The movement of the fan on top of the bed sends a cool wave after another over me. What a combination this is I am telling myself still half-asleep… these cool waves and the warmth of the sunny beams keep switching places every second.

It seems to be the perfect morning… I can hear the ocean playing very close and the smell of the water gives me chills.

-The door to the balcony must be open! I can feel the ocean breeze… I tell myself before spending any energy and opening my eyes.

It feels so good I am not very sure if I really want to wake up or try to force the morning until noon.

-Hmm, what about all the stuff you had to do today… a thought returns. What exactly was it that you had to do?

-I cannot remember so it must not matter!

I feel a movement coming… I swear I cannot control it… I would not spend this much energy now but I involuntary turn facing the window wall and the terrace door. The morning light seems to bother me for just a second.

-Now, time to get back to what I was doing… Sleep Eddie, sleep!

This felt like a daylong of business… all this thinking just to get back to sleep. I feel my brain giving up now and the moment I am about to lose it all the breeze pushes stronger over me for a few seconds and this time is right in my face.

Goose bumps… I get instant goose bumps as the breeze carries a scent of beauty in it. I can tell this smell at any given time in any given place and in no time, it feels up everything around me reminding me of her smile. I once again lose control of what I am doing and feel my lips stretching into a smile too.

-I do have the best reason to open my eyes and crawl out of bed now.

Therefore, I do. As I slowly unglue my eyelashes from one another, I find myself blinded for a short time. It could be the bright sun light… but no, that is not it. The breeze makes the see thru curtain dance slowly and there she is facing the morning sun, having a competition on who is more beautiful.

-No! It cannot be the sun; everyone has the sun, only I am so lucky to have someone much brighter and more beautiful than the sun.

All I could do for now is to stare… I do not want to move, I do not want to let her know yet that I have awakened. She blends in perfectly with everything that is around. As she carries her soft hair, straight the breeze could not wait to caress, the sun makes the most expensive velour on earth look bad compared to her skin. The music of the waves finds the perfect rhythm as she slowly moves from one side to another. It seems like she is humming a song or something. Whatever it is she is doing I do not want to get involved, as she looks so calm and happy.

I would get out of bed now and run to her, pick her up and kiss her allover but I choose to close my eyes and let nature follow its path and as I open them again here I am… back to reality. I now know what it is that I was born to do. Fight for “it”, never give up, and for those who do not believe in paradise I have news:

-It does exist only not in the afterlife… we all have our own piece of heaven right here on earth during our short life and it will look exactly how we make it.

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